It's never good news...

It's never good news... when the doctor calls you on Tuesday instead of Friday. It does make me like her even more. She still has not gotten all of the results back... but my ANA test came back positive.

What does that mean? Well... it could mean I have an autoimmune disease such as Lupus. Or it could mean something else. There is even a small chance that it could mean nothing. Many people with fibromyalgia have elevated ANA. I must say... this weekend I was hoping for Lymes and my worst case scenario was fibromyalgia... now I am hoping for fibro and my worst case is Lupus... hmm... life is just a matter of perspective, isn't it.

I was pretty upset when she called. There is nothing like hearing... "you tested positive as a marker for Lupus and I am referring you to a specialist" to ruin your day. I sent the kids and the sitter to Bouncin Bobs, had a good cry, spent some time on the internet, took a hot shower and watched junk TV till I felt better.

It is during stuff like this that it is hard when Ian is on the road. Tonight I would like to watch Ninja Warrior with him... but he is in meetings until after I am asleep.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hold on and try to think positive - there are many illnesses out there to choose from. I personally prefer the ones that can be treated surgically under full anesthesia
Olga, always had a better luck with those.

Tina in CT said...

Try to think positively and hope the test showed a false positive. I'll be thinking of you. Not easy having to deal with the news all alone. Been there myself.

I do have a friend with Lupus and she seems to be fine. Tami is sicker far more often with her sinus infections.

Anonymous said...

i think you need a vacation. i recommend spain... cures what ails you.


Leo

Katya said...

I was daydreaming this morning about sitting on a tropical beach with a drink and a book...

MoscowMom said...

Oh, Katya...

Wish I could give you a big hug and then take the boys off your hands for a few days...

Sending you lots and lots of love! Also sent ya a little package of stuff from Moscow yesterday...

Joe Ganci said...

I'm sending you love and hugs from Italy. I saw my mom yesterday and she is not responsive. Her eyes were open but she did move an inch or say a word the whole time, just looked at me. I hope she could register that I was there with her and here all the words I was telling her. I'm going back right now and spend every day all day while I'm here for two weeks. I hope, Katya, that the news ends up being better for you. You have such a good heart and you're so smart (never mind the fact that you're also beautiful!). The world needs people like you to stay healthy! You're young and a great mom and wife. Look at yourself in the mirror and count your blessings, starting with the fact that you're a hottie!

You'll see, things will get better.
Love,
Joe